Volume 22. Issue 4. December 2014
When I, Amanda, was about 10 years old, my neighbor who
was older than me, taught me things a 10 year old didn’t need
to know. I knew it was wrong but I liked how I felt so I kept
on doing it. Sex became something good my parents wanted
to keep from me. Boy was I deceived!
At 12 years, I would go into chat rooms and lie about my age,
my name and where I was from. This excited me. I could be
whoever I wanted to be. Being myself wasn’t good enough
for me. I lost my virginity at 12 with a 16 year old boy I met
on the internet. I was living a lie and became a disgrace to
myself.
At the age of 14, I began using and selling ecstasy. I became
affiliated with a gang and did things I didn’t agree with just to
fit in. I met a guy whom I fell in love with. He didn’t fit in
with my description of bad so I asked him to join the gang
and he did. Three years later he went to prison for attempted
murder. I was devastated. I turned to drugs and other men to
ease my pain but it just got worse.
Eventually I started going in and out of jail for drug and
violent charges. I decided to change my life so, I got a job,
went to school, bought a new car and got my insurance
license. I had everything I wanted but the hole in my soul
was still there. I ended up loosing everything. I got caught
up in homosexual activity. I broke my foot and my hero
oxycodone showed up. I became physically emotionally and
mentally hooked. I went to jail in 2009 for trafficking oxy’s
and was facing 30 years. In my devastation came God and
with Him came hope. I only did a year and walked in
sobriety for 3 months and went right back to the pills.
I got pregnant in 2011. Because the father of my baby cheated
on me, I went back to pills. When I gave birth to my
daughter, I was so high my daughter was detoxing. DCF took
custody of her and later gave custody to her father.
I was introduced to crack and started selling my body and my
dignity.
Today I am free and I accept being Amanda Margaret Krom.
I love who I am, where I came from and I owe it all to Jesus.
Some mighty women of God from prison ministry got me to
Agape Home instead of going to jail for about 5 years on 12
burglary charges.
Thanks to the relationship I have with the Lord I can now see
my daughter.
I have been forgiven! Matthew 19:26 “With man this is
impossible, but with God all things are possible.”